I’m glad I found some of the books that I did. All of that started me on this journey but some of them will keep me on it. For some reason I woke up today thinking that this isn’t likely to work and that I will lose weight and then gain it back. What was really going through my head is that I have been here many times and it’s going to take 10 whole weeks just to get back to where I was at the beginning of the year – is that really progress?

The chapter I read this morning was timely – basically was saying that doesn’t really matter how you feel and that thoughts can be the enemy of action – just continue doing as you can continue to control what you actually get done. I think I needed that today – two things I have to keep in mind. One – this is a long process and I need to keep my focus on this on a daily and weekly basis. and Two – I can have my doubts and worry about whether this will work or not or whether I trust myself to get it done – I can’t dwell on those thoughts and have to realize that if in a given week I don’t meet my target, then I have to make tweaks to solve the problem. I need to believe that I can get back to where I once was and not have a whisper in my head telling me it is not possible.

My other aha – it’s not like I have given a long dedicated effort to this process before and have continued to fail at it. I have thought a lot about weight loss but I never really committed to getting it done over a long time – I have been sporadic at best assuming it is easier than it is – have somewhat procrastinated on it and assumed it would happen on its own – kind of odd but maybe avoiding the work involved to get there.

Anyway – there are already tweaks I can make and will be focused on making those tweaks this week. I have an upcoming vacation Thursday- Sunday. It includes some good hiking so hoping no weight gain during that time. Next week I am also canoeing so hoping to will stay on track (try is not a word I will use going forward)

breakfast: quinoa cakes and yogurt

lunch: Asian lettuce wraps

dinner: Taco Bowl

drink: Barbet ginger

exercise: BodyPump